So far so good….
Daily pages are happening, and so is a little movement and stretching.
Tiny, tiny steps that are big, big achievements to this solo mama.
It is about grabbing it when you can. And letting it go, if you can’t.
That moment little one wanders off to play with his train for 5 minutes, I grab my book and write my 3 pages.
I am also grabbing moments to pick up a book and read…and what I read helps me in my search for my rain dance.
I think the biggest revelation here has been opening up space. Physically, mentally. Space for my creative dreaming mind (that brave young teenager part of me).
I had to start doing this in a literal sense by going ‘shelf by shelf’ as Gretchen Rubin would say. De cluttering, spring cleaning, letting go, making room, simplifying, finding a place for what we use or what we love aesthetically. Fixing broken things. Getting organised. Finding clarity.
This has also been happening to my calendar. Creating space, letting go of the things that don’t feel right anymore for my family, and making room for the things that do.
I still have a few shelves to go, but how about I start embodying this. Dust off the cobwebs in my bones, awaken my liver, dance my heart free, stretch, move for 10 minutes each day, before 10 am.
One of the best things to come from this so far (ironically as I type into a blog) has been my de cluttering of technology.
In her book ‘Happier at home’ Gretchen Rubin sets a goal to open up her time more for the things she loves, and it got me doing the same. Like her, I usually make calls while on the way somewhere or check my emails etc while I am waiting. I’ve stopped doing that. And it has reminded me of how it’s those moments that can be your most creative and/or that allow the creative dust to settle and/or the observations made during them provide fuel for creative ideas.
Internet was only becoming a ‘thing’ when I first started studying dance at uni. I used to just book a computer once every couple of days…but now, it’s just here…in a knock,knock, knock at the door to your little world, all the time sense….of course this has many pros, but I think it hinders my creative mind a lot. I had forgotten how much I need to give my creative mind the space to digest and to dream.
It was a bit daunting at first – the idea of falling behind. But it’s again about de cluttering and organising the inbox. And booking in the time that’s right to open the door up.
From this overall process so far, I’ve made a wonderful change to little one and my routine. Simple, but wonderful.
Since he was a baby, I have cuddled him to sleep to the same piece of music. A beautiful piece that is soo inspiring, but that ends too soon. Now we listen to an entire CD each night – CDs that evoke dance in me. Nothing better than cuddling your child, closing your eyes and dreaming up dance.
This was the part of me I had lost.
This music dreaming was something I used to do as a teenager while I drifted off to sleep.
I am glad to have it back. And I hope little one likes it too.
I look forward to seeing what else I find as I make space again for my dance.